Holding onto Hope

Many of you may be wondering why it has taken me so long to post again... At first it was because I was caught up int he busyness of college. Two months ago I was worried about hanging out with friends and whether or not I was going to make an A on my exam. Looking back though, the things that seemed to matter are so small now.

Last week was a whopper of a week for my family... Not only did we find out that my brother has cancer, but we also lost my Uncle Jake in a terrible way. Let's just say it was a bad week to be a Grubb. When it rains, it poor right?

I have always thought of myself as a strong person, but last week just about broke me. It broke my heart to see so many people I loved hurting. It broke my heart to know that I'll never see Jake again. It broke my heart that three children were left behind orphaned. It broke my heart to know Levi was about to start a fight for his life. Most of all, it broke my heart that there was nothing I could do to fix everything.

In this dark hour, I could hardly do anything but literally cry out to my God. Even though I could not form words, I believe with all my heart that he heard me. Without my faith, I'm not sure how I would have made it.. Without my faith, I'm not sure how I would make it through today.

My heart still hurts, but I am clinging tightly to the hope that can only be found in the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. As I sit here in the hospital waiting room, I realize that there are many broken people who do not have that precious hope to cling to. Now my heart also hurts for those who are not only broken but also those who are lost and without hope.

My cries of brokenness have now turned to prayers that God would use my family to bring him glory in this time of trial. We are so blessed because of our family, our friends, and most of all our faith in God. I already have some ideas of how to share these blessings with the people we are meeting here in the hospital. Please be praying that they come through! Don't worry-- I'll be asking for your help in these projects soon enough.

XOXO,
Leah Beth

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am with your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10